My head has been swimming lately with so many possibilities that my productivity took a nosedive and it’s been hard to concentrate. Normally when that happens I do the one productive thing I can do without thinking: I start a load of laundry.
But this sort of unproductivity was beyond laundry.
It wasn’t about Christmas, even though every one of my friends has talked about the anxiety that comes with Christmas and extended family. I haven’t felt Christmas stress in the last couple of years since I decided to have “Come As You Are” Christmas. If something feels stressful, we don’t do it. I also don’t get organized with lots of lists and charts. What we do is we each think of three Christmas activities that sound most fun to us, and then we do those. We get a lot of satisfaction that way, and anything else is optional.
Two years ago when I didn’t even realize I was pregnant, our Christmas was low-key. Last year was extremely celebratory with our first tree, and Doug and I spent late nights together making handmade gifts for the kids. This year will be somewhere in between. Because we do the things we like, I can’t wait to put the tree up and get Christmas started again.
But something else has been on my mind lately…thoughts about where we might go after the holidays.
I’ve spent many late nights looking on Craigslist for apartments in different cities. Where might our family live? Where could we feel enriched while still caring for the practical and personal needs of our two small children?
Last night our power went off, and that never happens. I could focus and think clearly for the first time in a week. Not having so many activities beckoning, I felt a renewed sense of energy. I got more done in an hour without electricity than I did during the entire rest of the day. I think I’ll remember that during the next few weeks, and turn the lights off early on the nights when everything starts to feel full and busy.
Oh, and did you want to know where we’ll be going?
We’ve decided to move to Florence, and we found a furnished apartment to rent. It will only be for a season, and I’m not sure where we’ll go after that. We’ve been before, and I’ve dreamed about living there ever since.